I set about to thinking what would cheer me best, and a night at IKEA was my best thought, so I am meeting a girlfriend (and fellow mom) there tonight for dinner and shopping. It sounds heavenly, and I'm so excited!
You might be thinking, you know, Clara, you had a pretty good break when your husband stayed home all week, and you'd be right in the sense that I got to share my daily mom duties for a week instead of doing them alone, and for a mom, that's a pretty big break. But I realized that the issue is that I need time where I am not emotionally available to Maeve, time when I am in charge of no one but myself, time to spend away from the demands of motherhood. Just every so often.
It's hard to explain this need to someone who isn't a parent, or who works outside the home. But we who are home all the time, any caregiver, understands. So tonight, I will spend three or four hours without changing a diaper, refilling the sippy cup, or herding stuffed animals. And I expect that my heart will be a little lighter in the morning.
|And I will come home to this.|